Not losing direction but confsed

There is nothing so confusing as knowing and believing in God. I don’t wanna go to church just because I have too. I want to go to church because  there is this beautiful connection and a good relations with my God…  I’m not losing direction but I’m confused. I was doing so well in Jesus name but suddenly I feel so not connected with him, when I pray I feel like I’m not doing it right and it useless to pray.

I am not moving in his name, just need to be leaded in a right path now as I’m confused. His been great I know that and his been wealth to be praised and always will. But now how do I go back and see that… I’m not losing it but confused. 

I don’t know if this happens to you too. If it happens tell me what you do and how do you get connected and feel his spirit again. Or I’m not being faithful to him but I do trust in him and I’m sure he knows that or I don’t show it… If not how should I make My God see I’m truly trusting in him and he will always be my living God!! My life

I’m hopeless and breathless

Everytime when I thought I’m making it, some things has to come up and ruin everything on what I tried to build for myself. I am tired of trying. It is either I let it go and admit I’ll or I still have to face another two year doing one and the same thing that I’ve been trying to do. I don’t deny that when things gets from bad to worse it when you have to be more stronger. But I’ve tried this either. I’ve been strong in rains, wind and storms. Still nothing seems to be working on my favour.

I dearly wanted to make sure that  I do pass my second year subjects and finish school in no time left. But as this dark cloud keep covering me, it seem so impossible for me to do this two things. At home I am given this year as my last chance they send me to school. What happens next as things do not happen the way I planned… Dropping out and no qualification. MY LIFE!!!

I’m helping the helpless because of God’s will…

We are here to care, live, experience, relate and most of all to LOVE. When I stop doing this this things, I feel I am going behind my back and have betrayed myself.
God is good at all angles, his love ensure forever and I am so greatful to be on earth and live while I still can do good out of the precious and generous name of God. He has given me the strength that I look back and want to count on what I have gone on right or did right. God have worked in my life in many ways and all directions I’ve took.
When I look on the pleasure that God has directed me to do his work on helping people. There is much I have put and scrifice , while the young people decide to go to clubs and spend most of their time on alcohol. It has never been about money but “love and God’s will”. My life and Your life. Be good!!!

Cars

We all like these fast expensive cars that are driven nowadays. We love their designs, their comfort and its speed. We love to be seen in them and feel important seen driving them; we don’t even mind spending a lot of money on them. But, have you ever stopped to think just exactly how they destroy our lives. Because of them, loved ones have left us so sudden, because of them our world is left with mourning widows, hungry orphans and empty homes. These cars have robbed us off our happiness; we have lost people dear to us. We have seen them burn the flash out of our loved ones, squash their bones and leave them for death. I say let’s go back to using donkeys and horses as a form of transport. This way we can guarantee the life’s of our loved ones. This way we can be sure that fathers will be home for supper, children’s will have longer years to live their lives, grandparents will die from old age and mothers will be there to raise and then watch their children grow up. A fancy, expensive car can cost you or your loved ones your lives.

Woman

A woman with love is a gift from above; the strength in her touch is the power of love. This is a salute to the phenomenal, strong, sophisticated woman. One with an extraordinary life, unconditional love, burning hope and a big heart. Woman take up so much, the pain they endure is out of this world, both physically and emotionally. They are the glue that sticks the family together, the biggest piece of the jag saw puzzle. They warm up the house hold by preparing a warm meal for the family, they fill it up with love by teaching children right from wrong; they bring color to the home by hanging up the painting made by their two year old. They are cushions of comfort and a great support system. They are the reason the family functions. Their sleepless night, their hard long hours of labor, their tears, pain and even anger are the reasons everyone around is still going stronger. They even put a smile on babies’ faces and courage into their little ones heart on their first day of school. Women are warriors, survivors and gifts to this world. This is salute to every woman who has gone through against all odds. Yet still going stronger with each day.

APPRICIATIONS

You never know what you have got until you’ve lost it.

 

A saying most of us turn to take for advantage, or rather just ignore, until it happens to us. Growing up I had everything and everyone, I was never short or lonely. I had the best of what life could offer at that time advanced toys, expensive clothes, good food, love and great support system. I had people who loved and cared for me, people who wanted to see me prosper and become a success. All was well as a child, but as I grow older I became ungrateful and spoilt. I took my things for advantage and the people in my life for granted.

 

I became unsatisfied and demanded more I grow bitter and angry and started comparing my life to other rich children. Basically I had become someone without appreciation until… I lost it all.

 

It’s amazing how one day you have all what your heart could ever want and the next morning you have nothing. I had lost everything and everyone within a heartbeat. People saw how bitter and cold I was and had left without me even noticing, the material staff just vanished into thin air, either stolen or unwarily gave them away. I suddenly had no one and nothing and then how I wished for my old life back, I wanted those people I had driven away, I wanted everything that I owned but I couldn’t get it back and then that’s when I realized the importance of appreciating what you when still have it.  

Oscar Case

The debate by  my little 12 year sister towards Oscar case… She says:

Many people say Oscar is guilty, they say Oscar killed Rivar on purpose but I disagree with them. Yes I believe that he’s guilty but I  still also believe that it was a mistake as he says so. Sometimes we just have to believe the untrusted especially if you were not on the scene and let the evidence speak for itself. Oscar must just admit that he’s guilty maybe the shall give him a reasonable sentence. I don’t know what to believe any more because of the untrue things people are saying. They must just leave him alone, get  out of his pocket. It was a mistake killing Rivar  so please live him the hell alone please. Only the evidence will prove Oscar guilty. He said it was a mistake, so people with beef towards him keeps judging him according to his background. River if Oscar killed you on purpose , please forgive him let him not get revenge this way, but everybody must pay for their sins and no one  must go away with murder. He or she must be arrested like it or not. They must rot in jail. But now Oscar’s story is over exaggerated.
My sisters words…..

We all have ability to change the impossibles

To I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength – Philippians 4:13
I believe that those who live in the more worse devastating and horrible conditions, have the power to change the world. I constantly ask God , why can I go to university, have everyday meal or eat good meals everyday, have beautiful clothes, have warn running water and constant electricity everyday…
While there are people suffer and do not even have one single advantage of what I mentioned? It hurt and breaks my heart to see them doing to school with an empty stomach but nothing is done. To see youth suffer to get university fees to further their studies. It hurts even more when I see those who can do nothing to solve the situations like this.
So what are we doing about this??

Be inlove you’ll know

A good relationship doesn’t just happen. It takes time, patience and two people who truly want to be together. No miracles that makes two people to be together but the two hearts that care and love each other.
A good relationship is so much warm when together or not. It just take time and patience. In good relationship, both parties threat one another with respect at all time. Value each other’s dreams and wishes each other well. Help easy other reach their goals. Admires a beauty smile that strengthen the beauty of it. A good one is full of love from the beginning till the end. And what brings the two together is a purely and natural feeling that is felt and connect them out of appearance. Patience is the most important aspect that keep the two people together. My life and Your life

Am homeless but i have a home…

It was realistic the day my dad past away. He left me with two brothers, the one is older then me and the other is younger then me.
I’ve always had problems with my older brother. I guess we didn’t get along permanently since I was a baby from my moms womb, cause he is very old from me to be treating me like we share age. He never and swear that I’m not his sister. It amazing because we share same mom and same dad. Some things are nature curse. I’ve learned not to treat him with respect as much as he do. He has created so much anger in me towards him, we’ve always been an enemies. He will call me names an still does. When he start swearing at me, we will know she wants to fight my mom but finds a way of doing it through his number enemy in the house. He will beat me till my mom says something, if not he will bang things and keep swearing in a way that people listens. I’ve got my flash arrested not ones but many times because that was the only way to protect myself and tired of the beatings.
I remember when he start his madness I would run to the neighbors house. But the day my dad died, it was permanent that I run to my neighbors for good. I was seriously homeless but I had a home. It was just because of the bastard called my brother…life wasn’t easy but I survived.